Oh god....I feel like I haven't had an official breather since school started. I thought I could handle alot of the work to come but I'm drowning and flailing my arms trying to stay sane. I guess that is just how high school is. If I'm not busy with school I'm busy doing stupid shit at my house for other people.
Plus I met Ghekkoo a.ka. Christ (he likes it pronounced kr-i-st?), and his talent at design and negative space is a slap in the face. Despite all of that...seeing his art in ad and design class makes me want to challange myself at his style and my own, but I never have time!!!! He also actually knows how to handle computers, while I have no idea how to make the simplist things for my own profiles. If I didn't have so many obstacles (my family and lack of money for a good laptop and stuff...) I feel I would probably get the hang of it but at the moment I have no idea what Im doing!!!! Christ you jerk WHY ARE YOU SO TALENTED!? You melt my brain.... TwT
I just want to relax and do some really good art work. I need a day where nobody is home, the house is clean, there is actually food in the fridge, and I have no homework. So I won't have to worry about working my life around every one else's. I can't wait to get my own place some day. I haven't even talked to my Robert all that much in the past week. He is either busy doing shit with friends or Im busy doing shit with friends/family. It seems like he hasnt even been trying to add some color to the situation.
What am I doing?